urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83 andrealynn83 andrealynn83 2008-09-05T11:29:23Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:13048 2008-09-05T11:29:23Z 2008-09-05T11:29:23Z 134.6<br />havent lost mch since yeterday at all.<br />today will hopefully be a better day. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:12577 2008-09-04T15:41:05Z 2008-09-04T15:41:05Z 134.8 this morning.<br /><br />since then i have had<br />coffee-25cals<br />sugar free jello-5 cals<br />frozen dinner-210 cals<br />some cheese on top-25cals<br />mini piece of bread-50 cals<br />total 315 so far :(<br />its not even noon. i usually dont eat this much its just i am off today and have nothing to do so i think i need to eat, i dont though.<br /><br />i did got for a 30 minute walk today, and ill walk again tonight and hopefully be able to skip dinner. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:12424 2008-09-02T11:15:12Z 2008-09-02T11:15:12Z 135.6<br />i can get away with eatting very little today!! woo hoo urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:12105 2008-09-02T02:46:45Z 2008-09-02T02:46:45Z today:<br />coffee-20cals<br />kashi cereal 1/2 cups-60 cals<br />coffee-40cals<br />cup of soup-70cals<br />4 saltines-55cals<br />lean cusine dinner-270<br />1 tbs low fat parmasian-30<br />1 froyo pop think-90 cals<br /><br />total 635<br /><br />a lot over what i should be taking in everyday but it was a long day i needed it, tommorow will be better.<br /><br />i also did crunches and weights, no walkk though i suck. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:11864 2008-09-01T13:16:54Z 2008-09-01T13:16:54Z 136.5<br />i would like to be 132 in a week.<br />i think its achievable by eatting around 500cals each day and walking 40mins-1 hrs each night with crunches and weights on top of it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:4753 2006-11-26T22:39:35Z 2006-11-26T22:39:35Z today:<br />cereal-100 cals<br />apple-80 cals<br />yogurt-50 cals<br />salad for dinner no dressing just basically lettuce, tuna, one chopped mushroom,, 1/2 slice of cheese- 120 cals<br />total- 350<br />gym- 35 cardio 35 circut training approx 200 cals.. i really have no idea though.<br /><br />i may have a special k bar or hot chocolate so either 90 or 100 cals later this evening.<br /><br />100 here i come!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:4415 2006-11-25T00:53:43Z 2006-11-25T00:53:43Z today-<br /><br />cereal-100 cals<br />soup-70cals<br />yogurt-60 cals<br />dinner- pizza, too many cals but purged.<br /><br />gym burned 200 cals.<br /><br />i am really amped for this gym thing. they weighed me and i am 123. <br /><br />my goal weight is 100 so i have 23 ibs to drop and im hoping the gym will help.<br /><br />i just get really uneasy at the gym and constantly feel like everyone is looking at me/judging me and i dont kow how to get over it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:3735 2006-10-24T00:21:38Z 2006-10-24T00:34:52Z today:<br /><br />earl grey vanilla tea with 1% milk 25cals<br />1/2 whole wheat pita toasted with 1/2 can of tuna and green onion 150 cals<br />green tea with lemon juice<br />2 nalgene bottles of water with crystal light 10cals<br />pasta for dinner- purged maybe 200 cals tops that i didnt get out.<br />approx. 385 cals total all day.<br /><br />walked as well as did ab crunches.<br /><br />today was one of the first days where i was home all day and did not get the urge to binge/purge. I did really good restricting all day. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:3402 2006-10-18T20:12:13Z 2006-10-18T20:12:13Z I have been having anxiety attacks all day long today. feel like i am suffocating. I am wearing new pants and they hit me around the bellybutton and i all i can feel is fat and stomach and it is disgusting.<br />i just want to get rid of it all and its killing me that i am not getting skinny and will probably never be urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:3170 2006-10-18T12:53:13Z 2006-10-18T12:53:13Z i have been having a bad couple of weeks just eating a whole lot of shit and it has been bad news but this week i went back on track.<br />yesterday i did good however i got a hot chocolate at tim hortons and in a medium there is 240cals or something along those lines and i didnt realize until i got home so now i am feeling shitty about that.<br />today though all i am going to consume is<br />my cereal for breakfest 100cals and a touch of lowfat milk.<br />tea ( i have switched from coffee to earl grey tea because it still has caffine but doesnt get me as jittery as coffee.<br />for dinner one of those campbells take a long soups or whatever they are called. blended vegetable which is 100 cals i do believe. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:3019 2006-09-27T18:12:30Z 2006-09-27T18:12:30Z <p>man i just had a close call<br /><br />i was in the washroom purging what i ate for lunch when my dad came home and walked inside and&nbsp; i didnt hear him and he toally saw me. i said i was feeling ok but it was weird that i threw up and maybe i would take some pepto to calm my stomach. he totally believed me that i was just sick and i am so glad. i did however get most of my lunch up so that was good.<br />i have purged twice already today. eggs and toast for breakfest and now chickenfingers and kraft dinner for lunch. i dont know why i have been craving so much today i have been doing so well up until now.<br /><br /></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:2756 2006-09-25T21:47:16Z 2006-09-25T21:49:03Z coffee black for breakfest. <br />handful of cereal for lunch with a touch of skim milk for lunch.100cals <br />chipsahoy thisations for snack.100 cals <br />starbucks grande non fat caramel machiato 220cals<br />i am trying to consume as much water as possible to fill me up before going out to dinner because at the moment i am starving and am SO afraid i will give into temptation at the restaurant. i just have to keep in mind how good i will feel if i just get a salad though! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:2382 2006-09-25T01:06:24Z 2006-09-25T01:06:24Z this morning i worked again and had coffee, green tea and 1/2 a botle of orange juice. 100 cals total.<br />then i had a dinner role and 2 slices of turkey breast. 200 cals at the most.<br />then a small choc milk. 150 cals.<br />then a veggie burger and corn for dinner. purged though.<br />so about 450 cals total today.<br /><br />not bad i guess.<br /><br />tommorow i have school which means i will just drink coffee all day and i walk 20 minutes to and from school. i may have to have a handful of cereal and non fat milk at lunch so friends dont comment,<br /><br />i am going out for dinner after with friends so i am going to order a salad&nbsp;with dressing on the side because i dont like dressing to begin with&nbsp;so iw ouldnt get it anyways&nbsp; and just say that i had a big lunch.<br /><br />i really need to buy a scale. my family doesnt really approve of them but i will just say its because its winter and i dont want to gain all my weight back this time.<br /><br />off to do a bit of excersise before bed. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:2138 2006-09-23T21:56:51Z 2006-09-23T21:56:51Z today i worked all day so all i had was coffee, green tea and water.<br />when i got home i had a pack of chipsahoy thinsations.100cals.<br />i just ate pizza and then purged of course.<br /><br />i feel so disgusted with myself that i cant give up food. like i need to eat dinner even though i purge it back up it just makes me feel satisfied.<br /><br />i need to start doing major ab work because i have lost a lot of fat and now i have gross skin that makes my belly look bigger because its all stretched and needs to be firmed/smoothed out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:1796 2006-09-21T14:55:47Z 2006-09-21T14:55:47Z Yesterday i did really well at not consuming a lot. <br /><br />i had coffee and orange juice in the morning. <br />then a handful of cereal and non fat milk for lunch(hardly anything) <br />then i had fat free icecream in the afternoon(purged this though i just felt so disgusting for eatting it) <br />then for dinner all i had was a couple of bites of chicken breast. <br />then that evening i had a large mug of hot lemon water. <br /><br />today will be a differant story as i am going out for dinner for my sisters birthday so that will definatly be purged as soon as i get home and i am going ot try and not eat throughout the day which is hard because i am home all day and tend to want to eat out of boredem. <br />i think i will just try and drink hot lemon water all day to keep myself thinking that i am consuming something. <br /><br />as for thispitation i have started a book and started collecting pictures on my computer under a fashion file so that it just really looks like i like the pictures so noone thinks anything of it. <br /><br />.&nbsp; urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:andrealynn83:1764 2006-09-20T16:09:33Z 2006-09-20T16:09:33Z have been consuming coffee, water a lot the past week.<br />i have been eatting only a handful of cereal for lunch with skim milk.<br />eating some sort of dinner and then purging because i cant get away with no eatting with my family/friends.<br /><br />a lot of people have been noticing my weight loss over the summer now that i am back at school. a lot have been commenting and my close friends seem to watch what i eat.<br /><br />i am not even skinny which is insane.<br /><br />5'1" and probably around 125(dont own a scale)<br />size 5/6 jeans.<br /><br />i guess it is just a big change since when they lost saw me.<br /><br />ok that is all.<br /><br />i am starting to enjoy hunger pains which has never been the case in the past. i feel like i am accomplishing somehting which makes em really proud.